tgif...

i'm really glad the weekend is finally here. it's been a pretty long week and i've been just really exhausted lately. it's been a combination of things: work, trying to have some fun in between & just not getting enough sleep. i think i might be coming down with something too. i've been pretty dehydrated lately--maybe signs of a cold or the flu. ugh!

anyway, i've been a little worn out from work. honestly, i'm probably still not as overworked as some other people i know, but i'm starting to get pretty stressed especially since my supervisor's last day is coming up on monday. all the work is starting to trickle down to me. and basically it's gonna be me holding down the fort by myself. you see, my area is basically made up of three people. the manager, the consultant (my supervisor) and me. the manager signs off on the decisions, the consultant makes the recommendations, and i do the research / analysis to help the consultant make the recommendations. now that my supervisor is gone, i'm gonna have to take on some of her responsibilities, in addition to making sure the program runs as smoothly as possible in the interim. i'm not even sure what they've decided to do--whether to hire someone new. it's giving me a headache just to think about all this stuff. as i'm getting all this work passed along to me, i'm seeing a lot of 'loose-ends' that are not being tied up. i'm being expected to follow-up on them when she's gone. sometimes i look at the tasks that she's handing to me and i think to myself, "WTF?!?! shouldn't this have been done 3 months ago?" or "WTF?!?! how come there are pieces missing?" plus, it doesn't help that she's called in sick again the last two days. (what else is new? she's not even around to properly hand over the reins. ridiculous.)

in retrospect, i find the timing of the resignation 'peculiar'... although there's never really a good time to quit, she's leaving just as the end of the fiscal year is coming up where all the finances need to be put in order. and since it hasn't been completed yet, guess who gets the wonderful task of trying to do it? i know that 'family' was an excuse, but i'm starting to wonder whether she could handle the work or perhaps she decided to leave before her performance could be evaluated...another funny thing is that even though she's leaving, she's still trying to protect her ass. because i realize that some work has been lingering forever and need to addressed ASAP, i've tried to take the initiative in bringing them up with the manager to see how i should get them resolved. then i get reprimanded by my supervisor the other day because i had made a 'decision' without 'consulting' her first. bullsh*it. you know why she's upset? it's 'cause she didn't do the work in the first place and if i try to get the ball rolling, it makes her look bad. unbelievable. in the end it doesn't matter, i've got to start looking out for myself 'cause i need to perform as well...

after monday, i'll be somewhat relieved 'cause i'm getting a new 'start', but it's gonna be crazy too 'cause i'm gonna have a lot of extra sh*t to deal with now... i'm hope that i won't be overwhelmed though... i guess this next month or so is up to me to prove my worth...

and so i digress...